The Bad Guy...

It would be two months already another four more days... But sometimes things don't turn out as we want and predict... It's 10th of April 2011... It has been such a long time since my last post... But that's not the point... The reason I'm writing this blog today is to release a lil bit of my stress and pressure and tell everyone stories of mine... I just broke up with the girl I love... The reason is not that I've stop loving her... I've probably made one of the hardest decision in my life... People always say loving someone is not necessary to be together with them... But I've always disagreed with the statement... Because for me, if I love someone, I will try my best to get her and let her have the best happiness and care that she can ever have... But maybe I've finally understood what is the meaning of the statement now... So that's why I chose to let go... Sometimes she will say I've changed... But actually I don't... I still love her like I always do... And even more and more every day... Hmm... It has been a few days we had quarreled and everything seemed to be worse and worse every day... And I'm not convincing enough for her anymore... From that, I've already prepared for any bad outcome... An hour or more ago, we chatted... She said confused... I could get the answer already just from that word... I asked should we continue and the answer was "don't know"... Well, I guess everyone knows what does that mean right? It took me so much time and guts to say it... At first, I really couldn't do it... But, Finally I had said it... Let's break up... It probably hurt her so much... But that's the only choice I had... It might hurt a lot... But it's not permanent... There's always bad person before the good one... So, I chose to be the bad one for her... I decided to say even though I didn't want to... She might already have no feelings in me anymore for some period but she didn't know that... And she's confused and didn't know what to do... Well, I love you... Don't have to do anything... Just leave everything to me...

For now, I just hope she can get over it as soon as possible because she has a lot things to handle in college... Sometimes I just feel so useless because I can't help any single thing... And she even stop telling me her stuff since last week... She faces stress and pressure alone and I'm just helpless... Making that decision probably helps a lot as well as she doesn't have to carry another burden anymore... She can concentrate on studies and her friends and family... Besides, there are still a lot of good and big fish in the ocean waiting her...

I cried... My eyes are red... My heart increased... But now it slows down... And slowly I can't feel any heartbeat anymore... It feels like stabbing my own heart with a knife myself... It's so hard... So hard... And I might regret for what I make... But, but... For her... I have no choice... I just want to see her face will smiles and laughters... Well, I guess I can only see from behind now... I can just do everything behind... Take care of her from behind... Watch out her back... Haha... What can I do? I'm a coward after all...

Please take good care of yourself... You're a grown up now... I know you don't like to listen to me... It's ok... Just remember to drink more water... Take breakfast... Your stomach is weak... Take good care of it... Your friends and family love you... Get advice from them sometimes when you feel lost... They're always there for you... Forget my existence if you could... I'm sorry for any cause and pain that I've made... Stay healthy and happy... Remember, I'm the bad guy not you... Don't blame yourself... A guy like me is not worth to be loved...

I just wanna say... I love you...

Chef Association Annual Dinner 2009!!!

Tonight...I mean the night just passed...Was the chef annual dinner...You know what...It was bombed!!!Damn!!!what the hell!!!It was a great dinner a fantastic annual dinner!!!Hot dancers...Cool events...Nice food...Great shows...Free beer...And so so on...

I might just skip all the unimportant part...Well...We reached G-Hotel and then we went to 2nd floor which is the grand hall for the dinner...I could see a lot of guests by the time we reached there...We signed up the form the we entered...Like I always do I started to take picture haha...I took a lot but pictures of me weren't much...So when you see my facebook it will be more of others...Anyway...After bout roughly 30 minutes...Here it is the "Cuisine Royale"...The event started...it started with the a dance show by 3 hot chicks...The interesting part was i was sitted just beside the stage where the dancers performed...I was like ''what the hell...the nicest view of the night..." I told my friends that haha...After that...It was some speech by the ''I don't know who are they actually''...hahaha...All I know was just Audee Cheah the current chairman of Penang Chef Association...After those unimportant speech the dinner started...We had buffet for dinner...Well as you know...I was taking pictures first haha...After taking pictures...It's time for me to ambush the food!!!But unfortunately most of the food had been ambushed by other people...Sad sad...Luckily I wasn't that hungry...And the beer did make my tummy full...So after food and shows...There it was the price lucky draw...My friend shan even got a canon printer from the lucky draw...So lucky of him...But actually before him it was belonged to an old hack who disappeared when his name was announced and back when my friend was going to take...But who cares about him...They gave my friend...That old hack wasn't satisfied with that and he argued with the presenter...Well everyone just ignored him...(I wonder why does he need the printer for??Assignment??Or to print some pornography??)Duh...Screw it...Things happen this and that...Until the last sentence ''Thank you everyone and have a good night...Wish everyone Merry Christmas and Happy New Year''...Everyone had started to move their ass and leave...Everyone was happy and me and my friends took some group photos together...Thanks to that girl who was serving for the lamb shank...I forgot to ask her name...Gosh how silly I was...Without her we couldn't take the group photos...So we must thank her a lot!!!Besides...She does look cute haha...Forgive me...Haha...After that we went home happily...More than happy that you could ever imagine!!!Haha!!!

So that was the night about!!!So what you think even just listening to me!!!Fun right!!!I know how you feel!!!So if you ask me how was the dinner I would just say "I hope it would never end"...Haha besides that I would say "if you missed it...You missed the greatest fun and dinner of the year...And you would be living in a meaningless year..." Haha see...That's what it looked like!!!

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18th Birthday...

Hello!!!Yesterday was my Birthday and it was my 18th and now I have the right to do it!!!Haha don't confuse...I had a great dinner with my family and relatives...Actually last night we were also celebrating my Mama's Birthday...Hmm...So it ws kind of fun haha...I even gave Mama a kiss^^I wanted to give my Papa also because he bought me a camera as birthday present but he said ''later people will think that I'm gay'' haha...I received some present from friends as well...Such as bag, something like key chain, cake and the...Hmm...about that haha...Oh ya and a large poker card from my Bro haha...Besides that I even received Ang Pow from my uncles and aunt...It was the right timing because i was MC Hammer Broke already haha...I'm going to snap pictures of those presents later...But kind of sleepy and tired because I had been busy for the whole day...So will do it some time later when I'm free...Check out in my Facebook^^

Besides with family, I went out with friends as well...I'm glad that they could spend time with me haha...But I was kind of tired fetching them haha...Fetching from A to Z then from Z to A again haha tiring...Well screw it...By the way my ex-classmate Xin Ting was so nice...No no more than nice...She rushed back to here from Butterworth just to buy me a cake and after that she needed to rush back to Penang again...And she even said sorry to me because the cake not nice...Well it's ok don't worry^^As long as you have the heart to do it^^Thanks a lot I really appreciate it...Hmm...What else...Oh ya we chit chat at the steamboat house and eating...Long time never had this kind of feeling...It felt great to sit down and have a talk with old friends...And I even just could see once in a year...But there was something I was pissed about...The steamboat was fucking expensive...It's like buffet style so it's counted per head...3 of my friends weren't eating but they had been counted together as well...Fuck the shop I won't go there anymore seriously...Unless it is free...

Hmm...Oh ya the bag my friend presented me is so nice haha...It suits me haha...So nice of her...I know her not more than 6 months but she already wasted money to buy present for me...How nice of her...But most my old friends didn't buy for me sob sob haha...Forget about it haha...

Yesterday was really a long day...Non-stop driving...Fetching...Eating...damn exhausted and tired...After this blog I'm going to have a nice and lazy sleep...But my bed is a mess now...Gosh...Need to clear everything before sleep...So i guess It's all about my Birthday's day^^Thanks very much everyone really...I really appreciate everything happened yesterday except I scratched people's car during reversing haha it was too dark to see a thing and the sensor couldn't sense the stupid car...Hope my dad won't scold me for that haha^^Hmm...Well it is kind of short for this post sorry for that haha...Hope everyone can enjoy it and feel what I felt...Oh ya I know you want to know my wish right??Haha very simple...''Be happy, Stay healthy and do well in study''...That's it...^^

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Victory Of Honour...

Oops...Sorry for late posting...Because the place I'm staying now doesn't have connection...Hmm...What to talk about??Oh ya about Wednesday...I had 3 matches of pool with a guy in my college...Actually it should be on last Saturday but he couldn't make it so had no choice but to change it...So on the day before the battle I asked my friend Khang Khang to tell my friend to inform that guy but finally I did it on myself because my friend didn't online...Well it's fine because it's my battle so better I did it myself...On Wednesday noon like that I saw him in the cafeteria then my friend asked to tell him so I just went to tell him to play at 3p.m...He agreed so we just had to wait...Until about 1 something near 2 like that he asked me whether could we start the matches but I refused because tere were people playing and I was lazy to wait and I had to go out with my friend a while...Although I knew he wanted to play and defeat me as soon as possible but still haha had to wait...For me...Myself also wanted to play with him as soon as possible haha...

So at 3p.m. sharp we started 1st match...There were lot of his friends beside watching we played...I thought he told me not to bring too much friends to watch because that would make him to nervous...So I agreed...But on that day his friends were way way more than mine...Even those working in the office also watching us playing...Well no choice it started...At 1st match he won...Hmm...I was quite suprised because I watched him playing the 1st match...He could won was because of luck...It's a long story to tell you could know if you were there haha...After he won the 1st match his supporters were clapping and I did too as a gentleman haha...Well I didn't pay too much attention on him...All I did was concentrating on the pool table...Well it's kind of dissapointing because one of my ex-classmate was on his side...Well who cares it didn't influence me...I didn't even look at her one bit...At 2nd match I realize why I lost the 1st match...I lost the 1st match was because I didn't give out my best and the skills I learned these months...So I used it on 2nd match and finally I won it...Well actually he entered the 8th ball...That's why he lost...Well that's the rule...Nobody asked him to hit so hard...Haha when the 2nd match finished the situation changed...His supporters started to quiet down...If not mistaken there were 2 of his friends were taking video...Well I wonder until now where are those videos??Oh skip it 1st...Until the final match...Ah it's the final match...We started...Until half my friends all came to take a look...(Hit this hit that this and that this and that...my turn his turn my turn his turn)...Well it's a long story...Finally the last ball...Guess what??Guess who??Ya it's me...I ended it...Finally I won the last match...So means I won the battle...You know what??My whole body was hot and my face, chest and ears were gone red...Haha I will become like that when I'm getting high and having fun...The best part was the last hole and the crowd by my friends...Wow they were so happy and they were shouting and clapping hands for my victory...Then I walked towards my rival I shaked his hand...Hmm...I think he wasn't that happy because he didn't look at him when I shaked his hand...Then I walked to my friends and I shouted "canteen on the house!!!But you all pay" hahaha...It's crazy...Then we walked to have some drinks...After a while my friends told me they were damn nervous just now...I was the one who played but they were way way more nervous than me hahaha thanks though...My friend Yong even said he didn't have appetite to eat and the food was tasteless hahaha...Then I walked back to the pool table my rival came towards me and told me "you are great''...Then I replied "no la it's just luck (well even I know it wasn't) just didn't want to be too cocky...Then he said "not luck...luck couldn't help on that...He even...Well even I know his 1st match was won by luck but I didn't say it because it's not nice and gentleman...And like I said (don't be cocky)...

After that I went to talk with my friends...I discussed with my best good rival (Khang Khang) so far...He said he was suprised as well when that guy won the 1st match because like I said luck...Skills are important but without a single luck it will be the same...(so believe in luck)...My friends told me that guy's face had totally changed when the last match finished...I didn't know that much...Somehow I could feel that but I just ignored it...Hmm...So that's the story of the victory of honour...Happy that I don't have to quit pool because I had a bet to quit it if I lose...But need to waste more money on it already haha...Even so it's still worth...Even I won the battle but there's still more I need to learn...There's no limit in learning...Once again I want to thank to all my friends who always support me...It's great to have you all...Thanks a lot^^Always remember there's no limit in learning and don't be cocky even if we win...So thanks for tuning in The Icon~~BabyK's Fairy Tales...I'll see you all next time...I'm BabyK'...Goodbye and Goodnight...

Crazy Service Today...

Today was the 1st time I worked as a waiter in KDU Bon Appetit Restaurant...It's kind of fun and crazy today haha...Well as usual we needed to set all the table...Luckily there was a lecturer who could teach us...So today I had learned how to really set table like a real restaurant...I even took photos after all the settings...I was quite happy because it felt like I was the supervisor even though I wasn't...My friend as supervisor was so haha (difficult to describe) so luckily I came out with some idea to help him...And I had working experience like this before so just now would be no problem for me...

While about 7 something there were customers came in...I had served my friend's family and as usual my face was full of cute smile hahaha...Because my boss last time always wanted me to smile all the time...I was so happy and excited because it reminded back in those days when I worked...As time passed there were more and more customers...In virtue of that the kitchen couldn't prepare the main course on time and it became a mess...Besides that the kitchen was so crowded and full of noise and the noise could be heard even the doors closed...Luckily slowly everything was getting better and better...After we finished serving about all the customers we had already started eating in the kitchen luckily there was no lecturer inside haha...After the last 2 dessert everything was done...What a crazy day...So we started to clean up all the mess...After about 20 minutes like that we had done cleaning up...We were asked by the lecturer to think about our mistakes weakness and strength just now...After that he had told us what should we improved...My friend even told me that we had a breakthrough just now because we sold more than our senior's record...That's so proud of us haha...Then we requested to change our food production time to night because we prefer night...Not only us even the lecturers prefer as well...Well not to mention the other group did request as well...So we discussed for a while and I think it would be a big chance to change out timetable...Yeah!!!That's what I'm talking about...So class dismissed...

What a tired well but at the same time fun and crazy day...I'm looking forward to this kind of service day again...Hope the next time will be the same place...If it is I will definitely be the supervisor this time I wouldn't want to miss it...Oh ya luckily my sickness had recovered haha thanks to those who took care about me...So thanks for tuning in The Icon~~BabyK's Fairy Tales...I'll see you all next time...I'm BabyK'...Goodbye and Goodnight...

I'm Sick...But I didn't give up...There're no Boundaries...

Today when i woke up in the morning I felt like wanted to vomit like that and I couldn't sleep well last night...Then after prepared everything i had headed to butterworth and then to penang...I even drove the all way...Oh man it felt like driving without my soul...After reached penang I headed straight to college then had a solo match of pool myself...I didn't have much form and energy to play...After finished the game I had a match with my friend zhi khang and I had lost to him...sad sad...but still happy...After that match we headed to the kicthen but it was cancelled and changed to theory class...I felt relief because I didn't have to stand for 4 hours...but even in theory class I felt uncomfortable and suffered...after an hour the class dismissed...then something reminded me that it's still had an hour left to go Bon Appetit a restaurant in KDU college selling by students...Because my friend had asked me to go and support her last night and I wasn't sure of that...So today after the class dismissed I quickly ran to the restaurant even I was strengthless...But finally I didn't walk into the restaurant because there were 2 problems I was facing...1st was I seriously don't have appetite until now!!!2nd was my friends all were going out so had no choice but to follow them...They had discussed for a moment for where to go but I had no comment because I was seriously going to faint like that...Then finally I had chosen to go with them to gurney plaza...

After roughly 10 minutes we reached there and we straight headed to McDonald...It was the 1st time that I didn't order BIG MAC when I was in McD...You see I didn't even order my favourite food...That means that I already sick like hell...I asked my friend to give a coke to regain my energy...It's weird huh drank coke when sick...That's my style haha...I must take cold drinks in order to let myself feel better...Then we chit-chat there and laughed like hell in McD and if not mistaken we were the loudest table in McD...Well who cares about that haha...After our meal we window shopped a while...I was extremely exhausted already but still walking...Then finally we had headed back to college (oh thank God)...Today's weather was seriously damn fucking hot...I'm not just the only one who said but my friends all agreed...Besides that I suffered more because I'm having fever...My friend even asked the student service department for panadol (thanks a lot) but still I was suffering...After 30 minutes like that my pastry class had started...I felt wanted to ask my lecturer for me to rest because I couldn't hold on for another minute...But still I refused to do so...I tried my best to hold on and pay attention...After the chef had done his demostration it's time for us to start our job...I felt so hard just only to stand...My feet were so hot and my body was telling me to stop...But at the end I didn't listen to my body but my mind...I had tried my best to do as much as I could and finally I had done the Italian Meringue myself (well a little of my friend's help actually)...After finished that all I wanted was just to go back...I cleaned up everything and asked everyone to clean up as fast as possible...After cleaning up the mess the chef had come in and gave us some information and then we had dismissed...

Slowly and slowly walked out the kitchen then my friends had discussed where to eat...Same as afternoon I had no comment and I just followed them...after about 10 minutes we reached the hawker central...When reached there I even saw that cute Daniel and his friends haha what a coincidence...Then I ordered a chicken rice but I just only ate not more than 1/3 of it...I seriously don't have appetite and I haven't eaten the whole day already...No choice but to give my friends to finish it...After a while it's time to head home...The 1st thing I did when I reached home was took medicine...Luckily there's medicine in my cousin's house...Oh God what a tiring and exhausting day...Wow I feel impressive because I had stood on the whole day without giving up and it was the 1st time I did like that...Even though I'm sick but I didn't give up I feel proud of myself as I'm writing this blog...There're no boundaries...Hope everyone could know how I feel and understand my point of the blog...Furthermore we must take care of our bodies...Drink more water and eat more healthy food and vitamin C...Thanks for tuning in The Icon~~BabyK's Fairy Tales...I'll see you all next time...I'm BabyK'...Goodbye and Goodnight...

A Fantastic Dinner!!!

Tonight...Umm I think it's already last night because already passed 12am...who cares haha...so i had a great dinner just now...i think it's the best dinner of the month or of the year...so it's considered the happiest day of the month or like i said of the year haha...Just now my dad brought me and my mum to a steak house ''US Charbroil Steak House'' in my hometown...It's nice come and try it haha...Just now my dad had ordered the Freshy Rock Oysters as appetizer which me and my friends always say it in the college to shoot Yong last few months...when he ordered i was quite excited because I always want to eat oyster so much and it had been such a long time since i ate last time...then I ordered my favourite salad ''Potato Salad" as my side dish and a Neptune Steak Delight which was the tenderloin part as my main course for my dinner...The waitress was shocked when she heard I said medium rare because she thought that I was going to order medium only haha...People usually will just order medium because some people can't taste the blood but I prefer medium rare or rare because this can savour out the tenderness of the steak and the freshness and juiciness...oh god!!!Steak I love steak!!!I'm so desperating to eat steak because I have falling in love with beef since the day i ate the beef from Austrailia in college cooked by my lecturer...so as drink I didn't order anything but just a sky juice...I felt something's gone wrong but I didn't know why until my dad said ''oh wine here got wine"...By that time I had realized it...That's it!!!Red wine...hahaha...I'm looking for wine these few days and it had come true hahaha...The thing that can't be missed with the steak ''Red Wine''...When he walked to take a closer look at the wine...i was like a crazy guy laughing at there ''hahaha oh my god wine yeah!!!''...So we just had to wait until our food to come...

After 10 minutes...here comes the appetizer...the first thing I did wasn't started to eat...What I did was taking photos hahahaha...I like to take photos especially those like food haha...After that i had started my hunger...The oysters were so soft and juicy...The juice reminded me oyster sauce which Yong always likes it "sorry Yong now everyone knows it''...For 10 minutes more my lovely Potato Salad had arrived at my ''Mouth-Stop'' haha...I didn't take shot because it wasn't that nice looking and besides I can easily eat it whenever and wherever i want...Without a second my steak had come...It was plated on a hot plate which was releasing the fragrant and i could heat the voice of the steak saying "come and eat me if you dare stop wasting time'' and then I replied ''calm down sweetheart all I want is to take a few shots then I'll finish you!!!''...After I done shooting it's time to start the fight between man or bull...@#!%&>>>The victory belonged to Kennedy hahaha...Then I had started to eat...Oh ya finally the wine had done chilling...Steak and wine what a fantastic combination...

After roughly 30 minutes our food had already finished...Then me and my dad just sat there slowly tasting and sipping the wine...My mum doesn't like that much so she didn't drink...So waste but I could finish it hahaha...So we had headed home after the last drop of wine...I even took back the bottle of the wine haha...Hmm......So I guess that's all for the dinner story...It feels like a bedtime story haha...Still it's drooling when I think of it haha...What a fantastic dinner hope there will be more in the future haha...Althought it's very expensive but still...A picture worth a thousand words haha if you see it then you'll know...So thanks for tuning in The Icon~~BabyK's Fairy Tales...I'll see you all next time...I'm BabyK'...Goodbye and Goodnight...